We will say a few words about how to practice with consciousness in meditation when your eyes are closed. The first thing to remember is that consciousness first of all needs to be properly awakened with eyes open. For that, the doorway of I am has to be opened, which is at the back of the head. Then through horizontal surrender, which is a function of pure attention, we reach the final depth of consciousness and awaken pure me. Pure me is the aspect of me which can merge with I am.
Unless one reaches enough horizontal depth, pure me cannot awaken properly, nor can it be isolated from all the layers of the relative me and the mind. Our pure nature has to first of all be isolated, experienced in its purity, in its unconditional essence, and only then do we begin to integrate it with human consciousness and with the thinking faculty. And only when pure me has been awakened with eyes open – and pure me is in fact what constitutes true consciousness, the consciousness of the soul – can we begin to cultivate consciousness from the right place in meditation. If pure me is not isolated and established, when our eyes are closed, our sense of self, our consciousness, will very easily mix with the relative me, with the observer.
With open eyes, pure me awakens through horizontal surrender. With closed eyes, its orientation is vertical; it is acquiring the ability to abide vertically in the direction of the source. Pure me is the foundation of the work with consciousness with eyes closed – embodying it, abiding in it, and surrendering from it.
As we abide in pure me, we simultaneously experience other layers of our identity. For instance, there is thinking. Thinking can be subconscious, meaning it is happening by itself. When subconscious thinking is experienced from the proper place, from pure me, this gentle arising of thoughts does not create conflict; it’s embraced by our deeper consciousness. Then there is conscious thinking, the kind of thinking which is more linked to the observer. When conscious thinking is clear, we are willingly participating in pursuing our thoughts. We are creating them, for instance, by seeking understanding, clarity, or simply thinking about different things related to our life. Sometimes thinking is in-between subconscious and conscious. It is not fully subconscious because you have a sense of participating in thoughts, and yet it is not fully conscious because your sense of me is overly identified with those thoughts.
The observer is an extension of the conscious me into the mind and allows it to creatively participate in the thinking process. The correct observer is transparent; it does not create a separate sense of self outside of our pure nature. For the observer to be transparent, it has to be integrated through both conscious me and pure me. Conscious me is the bridge between the observer and pure me.
Pure attention is another bridge between conscious me and pure me. In the process of growing into pure me, of establishing our fundamental consciousness, conscious me is evolving as well by reaching the necessary solidity, the quality of pure subjectivity, and by becoming more and more consciously unified with the pure me. If conscious me is weak, the bridge between pure me, the observer, and the mind is weak and we are not in control of our thinking faculty. This is the usual problem – that one is experiencing the mind thinking as if by itself. In truth, the mind is never thinking by itself. it is always me thinking, however that me is too undeveloped to be able to gain mastery over its connection with the mind. Me is undeveloped in relationship to itself and in its connection to our fundamental consciousness.
So the work with consciousness in meditation is fundamentally very simple – you are simply being yourself, returning to your pure nature moment to moment, and letting go into deeper vertical restfulness and surrender. And yet this work must involve the additional development and integration of all the layers of the relative me. The relative me is of course indirectly affected by the presence of pure me. It is changing by virtue of the presence of our fundamental consciousness. However, it cannot fully transform unless, from its own perspective, it begins to surrender and becomes conscious of itself. In holistic consciousness, pure me is the foundation, and all the other aspects of me and our intelligence are fully integrated into that foundation as the natural, creative expression of our fundamental self.
Traditionally, pure consciousness is seen as a ‘witnessing’ consciousness, a background consciousness that, from its aloof dimension, is witnessing everything that is happening on the relative level. But that which we experience on the relative level, all the other layers of me, actually have their own consciousness; they are not just objects of the witnessing consciousness but have a subjective presence, and they must also become conscious of themselves. Gradually, they begin to understand their relationship with our fundamental consciousness and begin to surrender.
Transparent intelligence, which is the true mind of the soul, is in the state of surrender into the fundamental consciousness. It is not only its expression and extension; it knows its source. It knows from where it is arising. In each moment of its manifestation, it is simultaneously being reabsorbed into the fundamental consciousness. The concept of witnessing consciousness is one-dimensional and static; it does not reflect the richness of our complete consciousness. Our complete consciousness is a unified organism, multidimensional, and interconnected. Each aspect represents a different function and they all need to be unified. The base of that unification is pure me of consciousness, pure me which is in natural unity with I am.
As far as the work with consciousness is concerned, sitting in meditation is primarily about embodying pure me and resting from pure me in relationship to the source, which is energetically felt as a sense of absorption at the bottom of the head. Pure me is energetically located in the mid-portion the head. It does not have a pinpointed location; it is spacious. Conscious me, on the other hand, is felt in the front. Conscious me is in itself linked to pure subjectivity; it has a solidity of identity and has an element of being, meaning it is resting in itself. While embodying and resting in pure me, from time to time we have to check whether conscious me is in the right state, embodying it gently, making sure that it is in a clear condition, and then again fully moving into pure me.
Initially, your main focus is pure me, then gradually you try to experience conscious me and pure me in their unity simultaneously. However, the weight is still with pure me. If the weight moves to the conscious me without having established the correct foundation of pure me, over identification with conscious me can weaken our connection with pure me. That is why it is important to make sure that the weight is always in pure me; this will allow the conscious me to reach its natural condition. Conscious me becomes the true conscious me only when it is linked to I am through pure me, otherwise its sense of self will fluctuate and it will involuntarily be drawn to the observer.
So that is work with consciousness. It is not a technique; it is not a method. Everything that we have described is a reflection of who you are, of different aspects of your existence and identity. It is all you. And that you has to become unified into one self, one consciousness. When you fall into the right place inside, you realize it is not even a practice; it is just a way to be – a natural state.
There is no such thing as observing the mind. Observing the mind is an ignorant practice which creates a split between the observer and thoughts. It has no relationship with returning to our fundamental consciousness.
The observer is not the one who is practicing. The practice – the correct cooperation, the constant alignment, the tuning into our pure nature – is a function of pure attention and pure intelligence, which is the inner intelligence of our inner self, the intuitive feeling intelligence which does not create duality between object and subject. Pure intelligence and pure attention are experienced in the space of intimacy. That intimacy is fully awakened when pure attention, through surrender to I am, gives birth to pure me. It is pure me which transforms consciousness into the soul and allows consciousness to be realized not only as an energy of clarity, recognition, and spaciousness, but as love.