Map of Awakening

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*Please note that this flow chart is structured to represent, in sequence, the major stages of the awakening process; it does not reflect the location of the awakened states in the human body.

Three Doorways of I Am


The awakening of consciousness is the foundation of the soul’s awakening, her entry into reality and emancipation from the construct of the mind. Because very few teachers and seekers are able to pinpoint the exact energetic location of consciousness, it is often confused with the experience of being, or an overall sense of presence. It is essential, therefore, to understand that the correct realization of consciousness is experienced exclusively in the headspace. Pure consciousness, the unity of pure me and universal I am, is the awakened base of our consciousness and the first level of transcending our relative self. It constitutes the transparent solidification of identity beyond the mind, the true birth of higher me. The awakening of pure consciousness, in combination with awakening of essential me, is what fundamentally puts an end to the ignominy of forgetfulness.

Two Pillars of Consciousness: Pure Me and Essential Me

The evolution of consciousness goes through many crucial stages, all of which need to be fully comprehended and experientially realized through correct, intelligent practice. In addition, we must have the correct vision of the multidimensional nature of our holistic consciousness. We can divide consciousness into two main pillars, which are the two dimensions into which it fundamentally evolves – pure me and essential me. Then, essential me itself is comprised of four centers: the observer, conscious me, pure conscious me and fundamental me. While the five centers of consciousness are entirely distinct, they are also fully interdependent and need to evolve in parallel.

Two Channels of Vertical Surrender

After the two pillars of consciousness are realized, they begin to serve as the two portals to the absolute, or the two channels of vertical surrender. The central channel runs down from pure consciousness, through the heart and into being and the absolute (through the center of tan t’ien). The essential channel runs down from essence-me, at the front of the head, through pure conscious me and fundamental me, directly into the absolute. Through the central channel we realize absolute consciousness. Through the essential channel, we realize the primordial state, which is the vertical samadhi of conscious me. Conscious me begins to grow into surrender from the very beginning, through the parallel awakening of pure conscious me and fundamental me. However, for essential me to reach samadhi, the base of absolute me to be established. Therefore, the first step towards vertical samadhi of consciousness is the surrender of pure me of consciousness. Only when it is completed, and the central channel is fully opened, can fundamental me, pure conscious me and finally conscious me begin their vertical descent towards absence as well.

Complete Consciousness

We can identify three milestones in the evolution of consciousness: fundamental consciousness, integral consciousness and complete consciousness. Fundamental consciousness refers to the unity of pure consciousness, pure conscious me, fundamental me, conscious me and the observer. Integral consciousness refers to the integration of the observer, including the mind and its human expression, with fundamental consciousness. Complete consciousness is attained when these two pillars of consciousness reach vertical samadhi. As such, it signifies the realization of absolute consciousness, the fundamental state, absolute essential consciousness, the primordial state and the sealed state.

Dimension of Pure Me

Pure Me of Consciousness

To awaken pure me of consciousness, the portal to I am has to first of all be opened, which is located at the back of the physical head. This initial opening links our me with universal consciousness. This opening invariably happens through initiation by a spiritual guide. However in rare cases, receiving correct guidance can spark the sudden, simultaneous opening and recognition of the state. It cannot be awakened through self-inquiry alone, because it requires the component of surrender. Once the space is opened, we need to practice constant self-remembrance and horizontal surrender, which is a function of pure attention. This practice is done primarily with eyes open, as it requires the polarity with the field of visual perception. This can then be supported with practice in sitting meditation, where we continue to embody pure me and learn to rest vertically at the back of the head.

Pure me of consciousness is initially experienced as our pure subjectivity between the middle and back of the head when our eyes are closed, and in very back of the head when the eyes are open. As it matures, the state naturally expands to fill the entire headspace (with exclusion of the front, which is the seat of essential me) while its main center remains at the back. When the horizontal samadhi is reached the core of pure me is experienced behind the physical head with eyes open.

Pure me is awakened through the horizontal surrender of pure attention into I am. Initially, while that surrender produces a degree of horizontal depth in the headspace, it does not cross the threshold of I am. This intermediate state is what we call ‘awareness’. When pure attention embodies awareness, pure me is born and can be clearly experienced, but only within the confines of the dimension of presence; this is the pure me of presence. To realize pure me fully, however, pure attention must continue its horizontal surrender and anchor itself deeply in I am, crossing over into absence and awakening and embodying the bare attention of pure me.

If pure me of consciousness is not realized, we can never truly merge with universal consciousness. Pure me of consciousness is the innermost extension of essence-me into I am; it is the one who reaches unity with the universal consciousness. Pure me cannot be fully experienced unless one has access to I am, because it comes into existence as the subject to unity with the universal reality. It is pure me that allows us to embody I am, to take possession of pure consciousness and own it as our very identity.

Pure Consciousness

Pure consciousness is the unity of pure me and universal I am. As we cultivate horizontal surrender, we ultimately arrive at the state of absence or samadhi in universal consciousness while simultaneously embodying pure me as the consciousness of the soul. This is the state of pure consciousness.

Beyond the horizontal samadhi of pure me in universal consciousness our evolution deepens into the embodiment of I am through which pure me becomes the bare attention of I am and universal subjectivity is realized as our very self. Upon shifting into universal subjectivity, pure me transforms into universal me, thereby awakening the universal aspect of the soul.

The complete awakening of pure consciousness does not signify the end of the evolution of consciousness as a whole. It only represents the realization of one aspect of our pure nature, and as such does not include the awakening of essence-me and integration of our human consciousness with the soul. In addition, in order to reach true perfection, pure me of consciousness must surrender vertically, through the central channel, to the source and arrive at the condition of absence.

Dimension of Essential Me

Essential me is the core of our very existence, the living essence and power of consciousness. The heart of essential me is essence-me, which is the deepest core of its subjectivity. Essence-me is the original sense of me with which we are all endowed, but remain unconscious of. Essence-me is our beginning and, through meeting itself and becoming conscious of its own existence, it flowers into conscious me, primordial me and ultimately, primordial I. To know oneself, one has to know essence-me because this is where the hidden secret of our true identity is hidden.

Awakening of Conscious Me

When essence-me recognizes and embodies its own identity, it becomes what we call ‘conscious me.’ This is the first step in entering the dimension of essential me. Conscious me is responsible for activating the quality of clarity in consciousness, for establishing continuity of recognition of I am and for the unification of the mind with pure consciousness. It is the source and home of attention: both our internal, pure attention and our external attention (which is the observer). It is based on the intention of conscious me to illuminate pure subjectivity that pure attention is born, which is the radiance of essence-me into itself, pure me and I am. Conscious me can activate three directions of attention: forwards – external attention to the world and the mind through the observer, backwards – pure attention into essence-me, pure me and I am, and finally downwards – to the awakening of pure conscious me, fundamental me and beyond.

Our evolution into conscious me begins by reaching a higher level of development on the level of the observer. The observer is the outer layer of the essence me, the center and identity of external attention. However, initially the observer is unconscious of its own identity and as such, the energy of external attention is constantly pulling it towards identification with objects of perception. Before essence-me can be awakened, the observer must first of all turn its attention back towards its own subjectivity, which is the self-conscious observer. In doing so, it forms the first level of bare attention of essence me, which we come to call ‘the secondary center of the conscious me’. From there, through its internal relaxation and surrender, the self-conscious observer activates pure attention, which in turn illuminates the core of of essence-me. When essence-me awakens to its own pure subjectivity, it is what we call ‘conscious me.’ To fully awaken, conscious me then must be isolated from external attention and solidified. It must also reach the condition of restfulness and ultimately be integrated with its secondary center of the observer.

For essence-me to flower into its deeper identity, which is primordial me, conscious me must then begin the process of profound vertical surrender towards and into the source. This surrender – through the essential channel – requires the foundation of pure conscious me and fundamental me; both of these centers serve as an extension of conscious me into the vertical dimension and the bridge for conscious me into absence.

Pure Attention

Pure attention is the dynamic emanation of essence-me into the light of pure subjectivity, through which the identity of pure me comes into existence. Without the awakening of pure attention, one can never practice meditation properly or cooperate with the process of internal awakening. In the absence of pure attention, it is impossible to realize pure me and therefore to embody the light of I am. Pure attention is responsible for awakening not only the pure me of consciousness, but also pure me of being, pure me of the heart, pure conscious me and of course, essence-me itself. It is pure attention which emanates from the kernel of essence-me to awaken the subjective core of all the centers of the soul.

Awakening of Pure Conscious Me

The awakening of pure conscious me is of great importance because without it, conscious me would never be able to transcend the dimension of presence, nor integrate the observer and the mind into itself. Pure conscious me is actualized through the horizontal and vertical expansion of pure attention from conscious me, through which conscious me establishes its body of being and begins to grow into the vertical dimension. It is through the relaxation and gentle surrender of conscious me that we open the space for the birth of ‘pure me of conscious me’ or ‘pure conscious me.’

Pure conscious me awakens directly below and behind conscious me, as an extension of conscious me towards I am. While it is directly connected to conscious me, it is an entirely new me in the sense of that it has its own centre of bare attention. Pure conscious me is experienced in approximately the same area as conscious me, around the so-called third eye. However, it has slightly more horizontal and vertical depth than conscious me. Pure conscious me is more spacious and does not have pinpointed location. For it to serve as a true bridge for conscious me, pure conscious me has to itself reach complete surrender through the essential channel. When pure conscious reaches absence, it is experienced at the bottom of the frontal lobe, at the level of eyebrows.

Primary Me

Once one has awakened both conscious me and pure conscious me, these two centers are commonly experienced too separately, meaning there is a gap between essence-me (conscious me) and its being (pure conscious me). To bridge this gap conscious me has to profoundly relax into pure conscious me so that essence-me becomes absorbed into its being. In the realization of primary me, conscious me is not yet fully absorbed in pure conscious me, but it has surrendered enough for them to be felt as one center. Only in the realization of primordial me do these two centers become entirely merged.

Fundamental Me

Fundamental me is the pure me of pure conscious me. It is a further extension of conscious me, this time into exclusively vertical surrender. It is fundamental me that opens the vertical portal to the absolute I am for essential me and creates the foundation of samadhi. Fundamental me is experienced lower than both conscious and pure conscious me, from the area below the eyebrows through the eyes down to the lower cheekbones. The unity of fundamental me and absolute I am is the fundamental state.

The Transparent Observer

While initially, the observer is a center of the false self, meaning it is disconnected from our pure subjectivity, it is gradually developed and transformed in parallel to the awakening of conscious me and pure consciousness. The development of the observer initially pertains to its capacity to recognize and awaken its own subjectivity, which is a direct bridge to the identity of essence-me. Once conscious me is awakened and embodied, the observer becomes a secondary center of conscious me that serves to link it with external attention. This secondary center must then be further aligned with our pure subjectivity through becoming fully conscious and ultimately surrendering into conscious me, thereby reaching peace. The fully integrated observer is the transparent center of our intelligence.

The transparent observer arises from the foundation of fundamental consciousness, where the four centers of consciousness (pure me of consciousness, fundamental me, pure conscious me and conscious me) are all embodied. When our fundamental consciousness is embodied, our natural identification with the secondary center of conscious me is constantly balanced by the self-recognition of and surrender into our pure subjectivity; the observer cannot recreate a false center of its own outside of our pure subjectivity, thereby becoming transparent. The observer must still create a center as the subject to perception or thinking, but in each instant this center is formed it is simultaneously decentralized, dissolved by the flow of recognition and surrender to conscious me, pure conscious me, fundamental me and pure consciousness. The transparent observer can be realized to an extent through the realization of and surrender to pure consciousness alone. However, in order to reach true transparency, the three centers of essential me must be awakened and embodied as well. The transparent observer ultimately becomes part of the fundamental consciousness and comes to be regarded as the seventh center of the soul.

The realization of the transparent observer, and later the pure observer, crowns the evolution of our consciousness. The observer is the last aspect of who we are to merge with our pure subjectivity, thus allowing our relative consciousness to become united with the soul.


Consciousness alone cannot enter the inner realm unless it becomes absorbed in the stillness of being. Being is that which enables us to rest in existence – the intermediary space that links consciousness with the source and maintains the gravitational equilibrium between creation and the original void. As both the impersonal ground of the beyond and the true foundation of meditation, it is being that allows the depth of reality to be divulged to our consciousness.

Being is felt initially as an energetic expansion in the area of the belly, with its center of gravity in the lower belly and its main energy flowing downwards into tan t’ien. This initial opening into being must then be embodied through the awakening of pure me of being, so that true surrender into the dimension of being can begin. The primary means by which to open and deepen the experience of being is to sit in meditation, and combine a natural abidance in being with constant letting go. This opens us to the gravity of the now so that the energy of the soul can be absorbed into a state of repose. This practice can be supported by gentle belly breathing and in which pure me is falling with exhalation, and arriving at deeper and deeper states of restfulness, preparing the ground for its final descent into the unmanifested.

The surrender into being, with its innermost goal of reaching the unmanifested (non-being) should be seen as a process of constant deepening of our vertical absorption, which passes through several important stages both prior to and after reaching the absolute state. We can divide our initial evolution into being into the three main steps: abidance, restfulness, and absorption. Absorption is then divided into three further steps: gentle absorption, deep absorption, and complete absorption. Although they represent stages of being anchored in the now, gentle and deep absorption still refer to the experience of being prior to reaching the unmanifested. They do not yet have the quality of complete, unconditional rest. Complete absorption signifies the shift into the absolute state, where the being aspect of the soul crosses over to the other side. In itself it has four main levels of depth: pure rest, no will, state of absence, and diamond mountain. So in total there are eight steps to arriving at the final depth of being: abidance, restfulness, gentle absorption, deep absorption, pure rest (absolute state), no will, state of absence, and diamond mountain.

Pure Me of Being

Pure me of being is the one who rests and reaches absorption in being, the subject to the experience of being. Unless pure me of being is awakened, the energy of being is external to our identity and cannot be embodied. Through its awakening, pure me allows us to integrate the state of being into the identity of the soul. In order for the pure subjectivity of being to be actualized, one needs to open up the internal space of absorption through surrender into the vertical dimension. Awakening of pure me of being is essential not only to embody being but to begin our deeper evolution into complete vertical surrender. Only when we have a clear identity of the level of being can we penetrate its final depth and enter the dimension of the source – the absolute state.


The heart belongs to the realm of the beloved, love and grace. No one can reach completion without actualizing its essence. While the opening of the spiritual heart is necessary to reach wholeness, it is impossible unless we have first solidified our identity beyond the mind and become absorbed in the source. Paths that limit their view of spirituality to love and devotion cannot serve as a bridge to reality unless they are grounded in consciousness and being. Without the foundation of the inner state, the heart has no reality apart from emotion. In order to open us to the dimension of the soul and the divine, the heart must be met beyond emotion in a space of clarity and stillness.

The heart has several layers. Although it is linked to our deeper existential emotions, it is actually the higher center of feeling in our body. True feelings such as love or sadness are experienced only in the heart. While most feelings are related to our human psychological reality, as we dive deeper into the space of the heart we awaken to the very essence of feeling in itself, which is the I am of the heart, the depth of intimacy with the light and love of creation. Apart from being the feeling center of the soul, the heart is also a doorway to that aspect of the beyond which we call the divine dimension. After the light of the heart is embodied through pure me, further surrender leads to merging with the universal heart of the beloved.

There are three main dimensions of the heart that need to be actualized: the human heart, which is linked to human feelings and relates to the world; the spiritual heart or the heart of the soul, which represents the pure subjectivity of love; and the divine heart, which is born through the union of the heart with the absolute. The first step in entering the heart is to open its energetic dimension, which grants us access to the heart. This is then followed by the awakening of pure me of the heart, and then by the merging of pure me with the divine dimension. Finally, through its vertical surrender, the heart is unified with the unmanifested.

Human Heart

The human heart is the doorway to the heart of the soul. The essence of the human heart is feeling me, which can be experienced in a subconscious, semi-conscious or conscious way. Feeling me is the subject of human feelings such as sadness, pain and love. When it is subconscious, it is fully identified with these feelings. As it evolves, it comes closer to feeling itself as me, the very subject to all these feelings. This is the beginning of the complex process of the awakening of the heart. The feeling me is the bridge between human feelings and the heart of the soul.

It is the awakening of feeling me, in conjunction with the purification and healing of the heart, which constitutes the awakening of the human heart. Purification of the heart is the alignment of our subconscious with the higher intention of the heart; here the human heart begins to serve the soul, becoming her positive expression in the human dimension. Healing the heart is the process of transforming and dissolving our human pain through the light of the soul. For this to be possible, feeling me has to surrender to pure me of the heart; the lower heart of the human has to surrender to the higher heart of the soul. It is the grace of the soul that allows the purification and healing of the heart to happen.

Pure Me of the Heart

Feeling me is responsible for opening the energetic doorway to the spiritual heart, but the essence of our higher heart is pure me. It is through the awakening of pure me that our heart can be realized as our pure subjectivity and embodied as our very soul. The heart in itself is not a doorway to the beyond. Rather, it is the place in each human being where the the seed of I am is kept, as the sacred reminder of our original self. Because its very essence is I am, the heart can be embodied through pure me. Pure me of the heart represents our divine nature and our most direct connection to the beloved. It is in pure me of the heart that love is realized in its original, non-objective form as the foundation of our existence. For pure me of the heart to be fully actualized, feeling me has to surrender and be merged with it. The unity of feeling me and pure me of the heart reflects the realization of our complete heart.

In order to reach perfection and arrive at its natural condition, the heart has to be linked to the state of being through vertical surrender. Arriving at the state of vertical restfulness is the first step of its absorption in the direction of the source. The final step in this process is the realization of the divine state.

Birth of the Soul

The Two Dimensions of the Soul

The foundation of the actualization of the soul is awakening the four aspects of pure me: pure me of consciousness, pure conscious me, pure me of being and pure me of the heart. Pure me is born through manifesting our higher individuality in the context of our surrender to the universal reality. However, for our soul to become complete she must also actualize essence-me, which constitutes a very distinct dimension of our evolution into pure subjectivity. While pure me represents our identity in universality, essence-me is the very heart of our presence and the true source of attention. Essence-me awakens first as conscious me and then reaches its higher actualization through vertical samadhi in the absolute, thereby establishing its final depth, and awakening its deepest identity - primordial I.

Pure Me – Universal Aspect of the Soul

The awakening of pure me of consciousness is the first step in the realization of the soul. Pure me is the existential bridge between the personal and the impersonal, between the dimension of me and the universal I am, through which the universal can be embodied as our higher self, our sacred individuality. Though simple in its essence, the realization of pure me is difficult to grasp and as such is virtually unknown. Meeting pure me is a flowering of the deepest intimacy with our innermost existence. One of the prerequisites for the realization of pure me, in addition to possessing the essential spiritual sensitivity and the capacity for intimacy with one’s innermost self, is having a sufficiently awakened essence-me. When essence-me is sufficiently solidified as conscious me, it creates enough substance of identity to serve as the base for the awakening of pure me. If essence-me is dormant, pure attention will be weak and this will prevent us from establishing unbroken continuity of recognition and surrender into I am.

Pure me is realized through all three dimensions of the soul. Without pure me, none of the awakened states can be embodied, meaning they remain external to the experiencer – me. In all her five centers (including pure conscious me and fundamental me), pure me is awakened through the emanation of pure attention into I am, whether it be I am of consciousness, I am of being or I am of the heart. Pure me of consciousness, being, heart, pure conscious me and fundamental me are all made from the same light, but they each have a different flavor that corresponds to the unique quality of the center they embody. Pure me of consciousness has the flavor of luminosity, bliss, pure knowing and intelligence. Pure me of the heart has the flavor of our pure feeling existence, of divinity and love. Pure me of being has a more impersonal flavor, which is rooted in the infinite repose of the unmanifested and constantly pulled into absence through the gravitational force of the source. On the other hand, the two centers of pure me in essential me (what we can call ‘essential pure me’) pure conscious me and fundamental me, carry the flavor of essence-me itself, amalgamated with the bliss of absence emanating from the absolute I am.

Essence-Me – the Core of the Soul’s Identity

Essence-me is the core of the soul’s identity in individuality, while pure me is her identity in universality. On a deeper level, essence-me is most directly who we are. However, unless pure me is awakened, essence-me cannot embody its subjectivity in a pure way; it will remain locked in the dimension of false presence that exists in separation from totality.

Our entry into the dimension of essential me is the awakening of conscious me. Even prior to being awakened, essence-me is indirectly participating in the process of awakening pure me by activating the flow of pure attention. However, only when it is met directly can conscious me actualize its own essence of bare attention – this is when the essential dimension of the soul becomes activated. Conscious me is the first step in integrating the light of essence-me into the soul. In the absence of conscious me, the soul can never fully integrate the energy of presence into her identity and as a result, her subjectivity cannot reach complete empowerment. In addition, conscious me constitutes the bridge between the soul and both the mind and the external world. As such it enables the integration of human consciousness with the soul as well.

The awakening of pure conscious me and fundamental me both supports and deepens the awakening of conscious me through creating a bridge to the realm of absence. Once fundamental me, and later pure conscious me, is established in vertical samadhi, conscious me can itself begin to surrender to the absolute. So it is through vertical surrender that the deeper dimensions of the essential me become actualized, culminating in the awakening of primordial me. Only then does the essence of the soul’s presence become complete. Here, primordial me becomes fully merged in the dimension of absence while having completely embodied and integrated the light of its pure subjectivity.


Soul-awakening reflects the realization of our higher subjectivity born out of becoming the true subject to unity with the universal I am. While pure me and essence-me already carry the energy of the soul, soul-awakening refers to a more profound meeting with our higher self. To realize the soul, not only does me need to be awakened, it needs to be fully embodied in the context of its samadhi in I am. Soul-awakening is the complete embodiment of pure me and essence-me absorbed in the state of absence. While sudden in essence, soul-awakening is also a gradual process. Even when our soul is not yet fully realized, we can be said to have entered the dimension of the soul, the true light of pure subjectivity steeped in the bliss of I am. Even though one can awaken the soul through one center alone, the holistic and complete awakening of the soul requires all four centers of pure me to be embodied, as well as actualization of essence-me as the core of our identity in presence. For the soul to become complete, she must reach samadhi through all her centers in the transcendent I am.

The deeper process of awakening that follows involves the integration and finally unification of all the centers of the soul, which happens through their vertical surrender into one another. In the central channel of surrender, pure me of being reaches samadhi in the absolute, manifesting the absolute state. The absolute state then serves as the foundation of the soul and the inner doorway that each center has to pass through to reach unity with the source: the heart reaches unity with pure me of being (manifesting the divine state), and pure me of consciousness is unified with the divine state (manifesting absolute consciousness). A similar process occurs in the essential channel when, upon the foundation of the fundamental state, pure conscious me reaches samadhi and then conscious me merges with pure conscious me to manifest primordial me.

The soul becomes one being through the entirely intertwined and interdependent processes of awakening and surrender. Each aspect of the soul has to reach complete awakening in itself, be unified with the soul as a whole, and then merged with the universal and absolute I am. Only in this way can the perfection of the soul can be fully embodied.

Samadhi of the Soul

Two Channels of Vertical Surrender

In order to have a clear vision of the intricate process of reaching complete samadhi, we must understand that there are two channels of surrender to the source. We call these the central channel and the essential channel. The central channel runs down from the middle-back of the head, through the heart and into the center of tan t’ien in the lower belly. Pure me of consciousness, pure me of the heart and pure me of being all reach the absolute through surrender down the central channel.

The essential channel runs down from the front of the head directly into the absolute, bypassing the heart. The two centers of the essential me (pure conscious me and conscious me) as well as our relative human consciousness, surrender and reach samadhi through the essential channel. These two channels are very distinct and have unique functions in our evolution. However, they are also fully interdependent: before the essential channel can really open up, absolute consciousness must be fully established, meaning the central channel must be open and pure me of being, heart and consciousness must have reached samadhi.

Central Channel – Three Pillars of Samadhi

Absolute State – Samadhi of Being

In the realization of the absolute, the soul transcends the fluctuations in her experience of being and moves into a state of unbroken rest. In the pure rest of the absolute, the motionlessness of being reflects the perfection of universal stillness. The absolute state represents our union with the unborn, uncreated source. It is the ground of oneness through which we reach unconditional absorption in the beyond.

The doorway to the absolute is tan t’ien, which is the centre of the vital force in the lower belly. Concentration on this area through breathing can gather more life energy. However, in order for it to serve as a gateway to the unmanifested one has to cultivate vertical surrender. In order for that surrender to be properly directed and have the necessary empowerment, the pure me of being must be met and embodied. It is the pure me of being that is first to enter the domain of absence. As with other states of awakening, after the initial opening, the absolute state must be stabilized and integrated through the cultivation of constant surrender.

In the absolute state, one experiences unity with the source only within the being aspect of I am; the mind and the consciousness of the soul have yet to merge with the source.

Divine State – Samadhi of the Heart

For our heart to become complete beyond the realization of its essence of pure me, it must be absorbed in the dimension of being and merge with the absolute. To actualize its divine nature, the heart must be rooted in the unmanifested. Only from the place of absence can our individual heart be unified with the divine dimension and realize the state of love. When merged with the absolute, the heart reaches the condition of pure rest, exalted repose in the heart of the beloved.

The samadhi of the heart is a prerequisite for further surrender of consciousness, because the heart serves as a bridge of pure subjectivity between our consciousness and the source. Without going through the heart, consciousness cannot reach absence and remains locked in the dimension of presence. The heart in the absolute state represents our foundation of love and being in the inner realm – the divine state.

Absolute Consciousness – Samadhi of Pure Consciousness

In her first entry into the absolute, the soul reaches unconditional absorption in the beyond through the gateway of being. Her consciousness, however, still remains outside the absolute. Absolute consciousness can be seen as the third entry into the absolute, after being and heart, where the consciousness of the soul shifts into the dimension of absence. Here, for the first time, our consciousness moves into the domain of the source and creates the firm base of surrender and absence for all the remaining aspects of consciousness to transcend the dimension of presence.

Essential Channel – Three Levels of Samadhi

The evolution of essential me into samadhi passes through several important stages. Conscious me is our entry point into the vertical evolution of essential me. Conscious me needs to first of all be awakened and solidified and then reach the condition of restfulness, where the quality of being is infused in its presence through the birth of pure conscious me. Then, we must activate a deeper connection to the vertical dimension through the awakening of fundamental me, the purpose of which is to open up the essential channel to absolute I am. Upon the foundation of the samadhi of fundamental me and pure conscious me, conscious me can then begin surrender directly into the absolute I am. In this process conscious me merges with pure conscious me to create one center that shares the quality of both of those mes, which in itself reaches complete absorption. This is what we call primordial me.

Fundamental State - Samadhi of Fundamental Me

The fundamental state is reached through the complete surrender of fundamental me into the absolute; it is the unity of fundamental me and absolute I am. The realization of the fundamental state is in some ways similar to the realization of pure consciousness. In both cases, the doorway to universal I am needs to be opened, and then pure me needs to be awakened, embodied and merged with absolute I am. Samadhi of the fundamental me is experienced energetically in the area of the lower cheekbones.

Absolute Essential Consciousness – Samadhi of Pure Conscious Me

Once the fundamental state is established, conscious me comes to be indirectly linked to absence through the identity of pure conscious me. In order to open the way to absence for conscious me, pure conscious me must first of all begin to surrender from its own center of pure subjectivity into the source to reach vertical samadhi. Here it is transformed into absolute pure conscious me. The unity of absolute pure conscious me and absolute I am is what we call ‘absolute essential consciousness’. This samadhi is reached at the bottom of the frontal lobe, where pure conscious me ends and fundamental me begins.

Primordial State - Samadhi of Conscious Me

The surrender of conscious me is a process of deeply letting go from the very core of our existence, that must be balanced by the continuous embodiment of conscious me as the subjectivity of the one who surrenders. The unity of conscious me with the absolute I am, via the merging of conscious me with absolute pure conscious me, is called the primordial state. Here, conscious me itself enters the state of absence, becoming one with the absolute. Upon shifting into absence, conscious me reaches the perfection of the primordial state and transforms into primordial me. Primordial me is the true meeting between our individuality and our the source of our existence, the absolute I am. Only by realizing primordial me can we be said to have reached true freedom and complete peace. Because to reach the primordial state conscious me has to merge with absolute pure conscious me, it is energetically experienced in the same location as the samadhi of pure conscious me, at the bottom of the frontal lobe on the level of eyebrows.

Sealed State – Samadhi of the Observer

As long as the observer, the secondary center of conscious me, is not fully absorbed in essential me, it continues to be a disturbing influence. It disempowers our consciousness and causes a leakage of energy through excessive self-reference and identification with external attention, relative consciousness and objectivity. In the condition of the transparent observer, one has arrived at a point of relative integration between the observer and essential me. However, ultimately they need to be completely unified. Once conscious me has reached absorption in pure conscious me, and particularly when it has reached samadhi in the absolute I am, it can serve as the proper base for the samadhi of the observer, which is what we call the ‘sealed state’. Here, the observer surrenders from its own center, gradually becoming absorbed into the primary center of conscious me. We call this the sealed state because the samadhi of the observer fully seals our pure subjectivity in consciousness.

The pure observer functions from the sealed state. In other words, it is the secondary center of conscious me arising from primordial me. The pure observer is fully unified with our soul and is one with the light of our pure nature.

Primordial I

The realization of primordial I is the final step in the evolution of the conscious me into its innermost subjectivity. Primordial I is realized when primordial me merges with the immanent I am, which is hidden in the innermost kernel of the essence-me. Here, we begin to know our ordinary essence-me as the divine I am illuminating our me with the original light of creation. The realization of immanent I am can occur only after the primordial state is reached and conscious me is merged with the absolute I am. Universal I am is realized through the horizontal merging of pure me with universal consciousness and absolute I am is realized by reaching vertical samadhi through all the centers of the soul. In realization of immanent I am, primordial I enters simultaneously into the deepest dimension of the transcendent I am – primordial I am – which is the foundation of all dimensions of I am.

Evolution in Perfection

Freedom is the natural flowering of our spiritual completion: the very merging of me with the soul and the soul with the universal and absolute dimensions of I am. Far more than the attainment of another, deeper energetic state, it is our radical transcendence of illusion and the return to our original home. Arriving at the state of love is the end of our journey into wholeness and transcendence, for here our soul has at last fulfilled her purpose of incarnating in the dimension of forgetfulness. Emancipated from being lost in her human identity and earthly consciousness, the soul returns to the abode of universal intelligence and, from the depths of original absence, reclaims the light of her primordial presence. But while it is the end of her earthly journey, by actualizing her original self, the soul begins the new era of her evolution and existence – in the beyond. Her new life is no longer about seeking freedom from imperfection, but about never-ending expansion into the dimension of love, bliss and truth. This is evolution in perfection itself, the ceaseless awakening of understanding and surrender into the heart of the beloved.


Complete Map of Awakening: Diagram


*Please note that this flow chart is structured to represent, in sequence, the major stages of the awakening process; it does not reflect the location of the awakened states in the human body.